Sometimes, there is important news to share. To me, this item is that on Tuesday, March 23rd at 13:05-ET, my beloved Augustus “Gloop” Caesar died in my arms after succumbing to a destructive sickness he had. His half-sister Hayley had similarly left me in February of 2006. My screams of panic were amidst with tears as I held her dying body in my arms. I was determined not to do the same with Caesar. When I found him in the kitchen on his side, I called his name again in panic. He looked at me as if in relief in seeing me. I immediately picked him up and held him close as if he were the baby bunny I had rescued almost 6 years ago from a backyard breeder one month before Richie and I married.
I started bathing him as I have in the past few months, but he lifted his head as if to ask, “Mommy, do I really have to get a bath?” Tearfully smiling and kissing his forehead, I told him “No, my Baby. You don’t have to get one.” He then half-closed his eyes and sighed. We snuggled together and I sang to him like I always do. Repeatedly I kissed his forehead and told him how much I loved him — that he was my favorite above everybunny.
Yes, I know I am not supposed to have a favorite child, but out of the 7 rabbits that I rescued that day, Caesar was my Baby. I even remember the time when he sprayed/marked me — rabbit speak for “You are MINE!” It was early in the morning and I was about to leave for work. I was covered from head to toe so I had to re-shower and find other clothes to wear. Coming back down the stairs I said to Caesar, “Dude. Little do you know that you are getting neutered in 2 days. You are sooooo lucky to get that out of your system NOW!” He cocked his head to the side and looked at me with that sweet face of his as if to say, “But I love you.”
There is so much I could ramble about my Baby. He knew his name and would come when called. Most of the time he had a huge appetite and loved food. He would beg for whatever was being eaten or drunk. If he liked what he smelled in the air, he would leap onto our laps to get at the item — even meat. I had caught him multiple times on the couch to reach a table or desk to drink out of a glass containing beer, wine, soda, and tea. He would willingly leap back and forth from the couch, to the ottoman, then to the overstuffed chair — all for treats. He whimpered like a puppy when picked up. He snored in his sleep so loudly that I could hear him from the other side of our home. He had helicopter ears that would move forward when he was interested and make him look like a bull about to charge.
He was My Little Love, and I have been terribly missing him since his spirit left me. My one consolation is that his ashes are coming back to me on Monday, the 29th April 5th, the day after Easter and the week when I rescued him and his siblings. I have no idea how I am going to react when I get them. All I know is that when I see the Wisteria I wore as he died, when I see the Clapotis I wrapped his body in to take to the animal hospital, I hope he knew how much I loved him. I cannot wait to see him at the Rainbow Bridge. =:8
My Little Love
Posted on 26, March 2010 by SomeBunnysLove
Donna
28, March 2010
I’m so very sorry ๐
Chris
28, March 2010
Hugs! I am so sorry.
Ida
28, March 2010
What a lovely tribute to a handsome bunny. In a few weeks, I’ll be coming up to the anniversary of my cat Lily’s death. Like Caesar, Lily made sure I and the others knew I was hers. I still miss her.
Sending you hugs and good thoughts.
Divine Bird Jenny
28, March 2010
*hugs* I am sorry for your loss of your sweet bunny! It sounds like he was particularly special.
cockeyed
28, March 2010
so sorry for your loss…..
bunnygirl
28, March 2010
I’m so sorry you lost your friend. It’s hard when any of them leave us, but some hold our hearts more tightly than the others.
Binky free, Caesar. You are loved.
DKM
28, March 2010
Hugs from all of us – we know he is hopping in fields of basil and dandelion greens with a neverending supply of blueberries.
Molly, Shadow, Trooder and I is Jake!
28, March 2010
We came to say we is sorry Caesar hadid to go. We know his body is not here but he will always live on in spirit.
Purrs and headbutts
~ Molly, Shadow and Troo
licks and tail wags
~ I is Jake!
Suzy
28, March 2010
I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs and nose rubs are sent out to you. Caesar is hopping around in a beautiful field happily munching on yummy treats and knowing his mommy loves him!
Shell
28, March 2010
Happened upon your blog and so feel your pain. I am so sorry for your loss.
Oriri
28, March 2010
*hugs* I am so sorry – my heart broke for you reading this, though I’m sure he knows now like he always did, that you love him. *hug*
carri ann
28, March 2010
My heart is with you. I am so sorry but glad for all the memories and joys you shared.
midnightbunny
28, March 2010
I’m so very sorry for your loss Kim. *HUGS* to you my friend.
Tracy Anderson
28, March 2010
Hey sweetie…I am so sorry. This was so beautiful to read and very easy to relate to. I just spent an hour watching a Mark Wahlberg movie, had a couple of drinks and the lovely company of Caramel rabbit who hardly ever joins us down stairs. Tonight she needed some “love”. It is Heaven to share your life with a bun, especially one that reacts and appreciates you as much as them. I too have carefully put away the green t-shirt I wore as my Elias died. I even remember the clothes Evelyn had on at one of our last vet appts. It too has been put away. I wish you Peace Kim…it’s sooo hard.
I felt closure and was just so grateful to have Elias home again when the technician handed me her ashes. It will bring you a tiny bit of comfort to have him home once again.
I have found a beautiful company called Perfect Memorials. They offer crematory jewelry, amazing pieces. I haven’t transferred Elias’ ashes yet into the pendant I bought, but I did place a lock of her hair in it. It does me a world of good to wear, fuss with and feel the weight of the pendant around my neck. If you get a chance take a look at their site.
HUGS…
Tracy
Debbie R.
28, March 2010
I’m sorry for the passing of your bunny. He sounds like he was a special little guy.
My cats,Samson and Tiffany, and my dog, Babs, are there with him to keep him company so he’s not alone.
(hugs, purrs, and woofs) from me, my cats, and dogs.
LittleWit
29, March 2010
*Hugs* My deepest condolences for your loss.
Karen
29, March 2010
It’s so hard when we have to let them leave us. But you gave him a wonderful life and made his last moments peaceful and filled with love. Huge hugs to you.
Melissa (Meliabella)
29, March 2010
I am so sorry for your loss Kim.
Dina
29, March 2010
{{{hugs}}} *** kisses ***
What a beautiful tribute for a beautiful bunny. Maybe somebunny needs a new home and now there is room in your home for a new bunny in need.
Take care! See you next month at the shearing?
Debbie
29, March 2010
big hug to you. I’m so sorry.
KYbunnymom
29, March 2010
I’m so sorry to hear about Caesar’s passing…your memorial is so touching and it’s obvious that he knew you loved him right up to the very last moment. I only hope that when such a time comes for one of our furry children, I can act with the dignity and love that you have shown.
{{{hugs from me and Kylie}}}
ck
29, March 2010
I’m so sorry to hear about Caesar. Big hugs.
Jennifer
29, March 2010
I’m so very sorry. He sounds so very special.
jennifer pace
29, March 2010
I am so sorry for your loss. It amazing how our furry little ones work their way so deeply into our hearts.
{{HUGS}}
honeybee33
29, March 2010
I’m so terribly sorry to hear this!!! We lost our two greatest little luv-kitties less than a year apart recently and it still hurts. Some of them are just very, very special …
Mish
29, March 2010
Oh, I am so sorry. Much love and hugs to you.
Jenn
29, March 2010
I’m so sorry. ๐ My thoughts are with you.
Dawn
29, March 2010
Just thinking of you.
lauria
30, March 2010
I’m so sorry for your loss! What a sweet looking bunny. I’m sure he’ll be missed, but it sounds like he really knew just how much you love him. <3
Julie (Julie from Ravelry)
30, March 2010
I’m so sorry for your loss. He sounds like such a wonderful bunny and a joy to have around. I know you’ll miss him. Hugs from the “Sunshine Aunties”.
Heather
30, March 2010
I’m sorry about your wonderful bunny.
GrandmaTutu
31, March 2010
I’m so sorry for your loss! I know how heartreaking it is. Best love to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
Elayne
1, April 2010
So very sorry. You have my heartfelt sympathy on the loss of your bunny….
Kimberly
8, April 2010
Thanks Everybunny for your kind words and thoughts. I picked up Caesar’s ashes today, and the veterinarian’s office said that they made a paw print in clay for me. The tablet should arrive any day now! =:8
puffthemagicrabbit
8, April 2010
Oh, I’m so sorry- I’m sure he knew exactly how loved he was! And how sweet of your vet’s office. Hugs.
Rain
11, April 2010
:'( I feel like I knew him too ๐
I hope you’re okay and I know nothing will replace the feeling of having him in your arms till you see him again.
So sorry that he passed ๐ ๐
Amy
7, August 2010
I am so sorry for your loss. I can sympathize greatly as I just lost my baby Lucy yesterday. I will keep you and him in my thoughts and .